Travails of A Mom Wannabe

Two years of battling ovarian cysts through surgeries have taken their toll on my emotions.  The last operation came with a verdict from my surgeon, Dr. Delfin Tan (Philippines’ renowned infertility specialist): my right fallopian tube is blocked and the only way for us to get pregnant was to undergo several tests and surgeries, ultimately leading to fertilization through test tube and in-vitro.  It would mean a costly half million peso procedure, various hormonal manipulations, and a 20% chance of success.  It wasn’t so hard to say, “No, thanks.”

Infertility is never easy, especially to those like me who envisioned a future as a mom raising her own children and nurturing them toward godly living.   I understand now how certain biblical women felt about their own infertility:  Sarah with her incredulous laughter, Hannah with her desperate prayer & vow, and Elizabeth with her quiet surrender.  As I reflected on their lives and how God answered their prayers, I sensed the Holy Spirit gently persuading my heart to remain hopeful.  A child will come, someday.  Whether through a miracle of an opened tube or adoption, that child is already divinely hand-picked for us.  All we need to do now is relax, pray while waiting, maximize our time and gift of being a couple, and enjoy other people’s baby blessings.

We praise God for the grace to walk through this season in our lives as a childless couple.  Sometimes it’s difficult; other times, we feel blessed by the tremendous freedom from being child-free.  We still see our home being filled with children someday, by faith.  It’s only a matter of time…we are waiting on the Lord.  Please pray with us.  😀



Filed under battle with ovarian cysts, children, infertility, sufficiency in Christ

16 responses to “Travails of A Mom Wannabe

  1. Xanne Tejada

    will do pray with you ate.. God bless 🙂

  2. Luzalej

    Praying with and for you, Joan 🙂 love you

  3. Bituin Gallana

    Thank you for sharing your heart ate. I am encouraged by your trust in the Lord. He is the Giver of good gifts & I’m sure He knows your deepest desires. *tight hugs*

    • Hello there, Star! Thanks for reading my first blog post. God is truly good and gracious. We’re already blessed now and consider a child His divine bonus, if He decides to give to us. Hugs to you, too. Regards to Jomer and your cutie pie-gwapo Malaya!:D

  4. ChengRacs

    Joan and Reuben,

    God is faithful! He knows both your desire–I will continually pray for you both. Hope we meet next year when we go home sa Pinas.
    Love you,
    Cheng and Lewis

  5. prekay

    Jone, think positive! God will surely provide.

  6. Ruthy

    Its only a matter of time, ate! 🙂 will be praying.. Ninang ako ha?hehehe

  7. A Eunice T. Singson

    God’s plans are perfect and worth waiting for, ate. I hope God will someday grant the desires of your heart, in His time. 🙂
    –I’m praying for both of you ni kuya reuben.

    • Thank you so much for praying for us, Eunice. I thank God for you. I know your life is a testimony of God’s grace. He is working always to bring you closer to Him. Hugs and love from me! I wanna see Timong soon. 😀

  8. Twinkle

    Ate Jone, praying for you and your family. God bless you more and more!

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