Two years of battling ovarian cysts through surgeries have taken their toll on my emotions. The last operation came with a verdict from my surgeon, Dr. Delfin Tan (Philippines’ renowned infertility specialist): my right fallopian tube is blocked and the only way for us to get pregnant was to undergo several tests and surgeries, ultimately leading to fertilization through test tube and in-vitro. It would mean a costly half million peso procedure, various hormonal manipulations, and a 20% chance of success. It wasn’t so hard to say, “No, thanks.”
Infertility is never easy, especially to those like me who envisioned a future as a mom raising her own children and nurturing them toward godly living. I understand now how certain biblical women felt about their own infertility: Sarah with her incredulous laughter, Hannah with her desperate prayer & vow, and Elizabeth with her quiet surrender. As I reflected on their lives and how God answered their prayers, I sensed the Holy Spirit gently persuading my heart to remain hopeful. A child will come, someday. Whether through a miracle of an opened tube or adoption, that child is already divinely hand-picked for us. All we need to do now is relax, pray while waiting, maximize our time and gift of being a couple, and enjoy other people’s baby blessings.
We praise God for the grace to walk through this season in our lives as a childless couple. Sometimes it’s difficult; other times, we feel blessed by the tremendous freedom from being child-free. We still see our home being filled with children someday, by faith. It’s only a matter of time…we are waiting on the Lord. Please pray with us. 😀